I hope

I hope one day someone looks at you like they've been waiting a long time to feel as happy as they do now. I hope they tell you cute things like how they found this cosy Italian restaurant around the corner and kiss your nose before spinning you around in the street. I hope when you ask them to go for a walk in the middle of the night they don't complain that it's too cold and even though you can see the condensation of your breath in the midnight air I hope you feel warm. I hope old ladies smile knowingly when you walk by, hand in hand, along the pavement and I hope you are smiling too.

When he whispers how much he loves you I hope you feel your heart beating so fast you're scared you'll never recover. I hope he stays and makes you feel important, like he wants every part of this and isn't afraid to admit it. I hope he finds words that touch you where his fingers cannot and knows how to pull your hair when you're feeling electric but hold your soul when you're fragile like glass. And I hope you find someone who asks before they kiss you, not because they need permission but because they want to see your knees buckle and your lips part ways. I hope their hands feel right around your waist when you replyyes’ and again ‘yes’, until you're falling apart in his arms whisperingyes, yes, yes’ and I hope you never need to ask if he's the one because the answer will be staring you in the face.

Excerpt from a book I'll never write #71 "I'm scared I'll never feel love like the kind you write about"



Fuck you, I'm worth it and fuck you for making me think for the slightest second that I'm not.

If he hurts you, cut him out. He's gone, he isn't coming back, and you don't need to prolong the pain.

De algún lugar de Tumblr. 


Sometimes the hardest person to give a second chance to is yourself.


One day I just woke up and realized that I can’t touch yesterday. So why the heck was I letting it touch me?

Steve Maraboli

I don't know why I waste my time getting hung up about the things you say, when I open my eyes and it's a lovely day
You know sometimes I feel like I'm getting snowed under with the things you say, when I open my eyes and it's a lovely day.


I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.

Robin Williams

Sometimes you end up never speaking to someone who meant the world to you again. And that’s okay. You cope and you survive. Don't let your losses keep you back from new gains.
It all works out eventually, just breathe through existing moments and whatever happens after is what should've been. Trust the universe.

No matter how good things are, there will always be solitary nights you spend in your bedroom, in a car, or in a party full of your closest friends when it feels like the walls are caving in.

Dan Campbell



Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room, calling my name and I follow just to find you. I trace the faith to a broken down television and put on the weather. And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause I frozen time between hearses and caskets, lost control when I panicked at the acid test.

I wanna get better.

While my friends were getting high and chasing boys down parkway lines, I was losing my mind, 'cause the love, the love, the love, the love, the love that I gave wasted on a nice face. In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet counting seconds through the night and got carried away, so now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars...

"Hey, I wanna get better!"

I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face, I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better. I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change, I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better.

I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling ,cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was
Now I'm a stranger.

And I miss the days of a life still permanent, mourn the years before I got carried away, so now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself...

''Hey, I wanna get better!''

I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face, I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better. I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change, I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better.

'Cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi, I'm screaming from my bedroom window, even if its gonna kill me

Woke up this morning early before my family, from this dream where he was trying to show me how a life can move from the darkness, he said to get better.

So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet and I crash my car 'cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself...

''Hey, I wanna get better''

I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face, I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better. I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change, I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better.


I love the rain. I love how it softens the outlines of things. The world becomes softly blurred, and I feel like I melt right into it.

Hanamoto Hagumi


"…I'm someone who's mostly dead inside but still has a little hope for something extraordinary, which, as I said, is the worst breed of human, because it means I know everything is bullshit, but that I secretly hope for the day when it might not be."

Nick Miller


You will always be too much of something for someone: too big, too loud, too soft, too edgy. If you round out your edges, you lose your edge.

Apologize for mistakes. Apologize for unintentionally hurting someone — profusely. But don't apologize for being who you are.

Danielle Laporte


Almost. It's a big word for me. I feel it everywhere. Almost home. Almost happy. Almost changed. Almost, but not quite. Not yet. Soon, maybe.


You will be stupid. You will worry your parents. You will question your own choices, your relationships, your jobs, your friends, where you live, what you studied in college, that you went to college at allIf that happens, you're doing it right.

Ira Glass
"Everything is temporary."
-3 words that completely changed my life once I fully accepted them
Notice the people who are happy for your happiness, and sad for your sadness. They’re the ones who deserve special places in your heart.


Anything that's human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary. The people we trust with that important talk can help us know that we are not alone.

Fred Rogers


I am learning every day to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me.

Tracee Ellis Ross 
I think too much. I think ahead. I think behind. I think sideways. I think it all. If it exists, I've fucking thought of it.

Winona Ryder


I don't know who I am. Or maybe I do know who I am and I just don't want to be her anymore.

Gayle Forman


Note to self: every time you were convinced you couldn't go on, you did.
Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.

Maya Angelou 


You will be the only you to ever live on this planet, so don't be afraid to be yourself. Fuck what people think about you, take advantage of being unique. Stay true to who you really are and begin to take responsibility for yourself. At the end of the day, we are nothing but our own experiences and memories and the only dreams that matter are the ones you have when you're awake. Be thankful for what you have and where you're at. Some aren’t so fortunate, some people have real problems, so don't stress, it always could be worse.

And this is real life. The way you can deal with those situations is by making decisions, and you either do or you don't want to be involved with them. I know it's way more complicated then that, but that's the step you need to take. It's the time spent contemplating which is the hardest. Perfection cannot be reached, because nothing's perfect, but things can change, and so can people.

Time here is short. Fuck what you know, or think you know, and just be and give yourself some credit for the work you put in with your own two hands, but remember to never forget the people and things that have helped you along the way. Surround yourself with the people you love, and well, if they don't love you, then they really aren't your friends.

You only have one chance to live in this spec we call life, so stay the fuck in school, and say fucking no to drugs. Tomorrow, smile at a perfect stranger. Don't forget how lucky we are to be alive, take advantage of every day. There is life in every breath you take, and there is hope with every move you make, and every single mistake you think you've made should make you feel alive. Remember there might not be a tomorrow.

Skies are blue and I'm alive. So all is well.

John Cornelius O'Callaghan V

I want to meet someone who makes me feel the way music does.


♥ ♥ ♥
Guys who give non-awkward hugs make the world go round

Love me till I'm me again.


You're not even mine to miss.
Who the hell said you no longer had it in you?

Charles Bukowski


1. Chocolate is only a temporary fix.
2. A properly-fitting bra is not a luxury. It is a necessity.
3. Your happiness is your happiness and yours alone.
4. How to apply red lipstick.
5. How to wear the crap out of red lipstick.
6. A boyfriend does not validate your existence.
7. Eat the extra slice of pizza.
8. Wear what makes you feel gracefully at ease.
9. Love the world unconditionally.
10. Seek beauty in all things.
11. Buy your friends dinner when you can.
12. Wear sunscreen like it’s your second job.
13. Try with all your might to keep in contact with far-away friends.
14. Make the world feel at ease around you.
15. Walk with your head up.
16. Order a cheeseburger on the first date if you want to.
17. Never, ever bite your nails.
18. Swipe on some lipstick, put on your leather jacket, and sneak into a bar somewhere.
19. Learn from your mistakes that night.
20. Dental hygiene is not multiple choice.
21. Your GPA is not a confession of your character.
22. There is strength in breaking down.
23. You don’t have to like yoga.
24. Pick a tea.
25. Take care of your feet.
26. Pick a perfume.
27. Even if you’re tall, wear the heels anyway.
28. Classy is a relative term.
29. Drink whiskey if you like whiskey.
30. Drink wine if you like wine.
31. Like what you like.
32. Offer no explanation.
33. Advil and Gatorade.
34. You are no less of a woman when you’re in sweats and gym shoes than a woman in stilettos and a pencil skirt.
35. A woman is a woman is a woman.
36. Love your fellow woman with all your heart and soul.
37. Cry, uninhibited, with your friends.
38. Laugh until you can’t breathe with your friends.
39. Tell me everything.
40. Exercise to be strong and healthy. A beautiful soul needs a sturdy vessel.
41. There is no shame in hoping for love.
42. My cooking is the best cooking.
43. Do not take sex lightly.
44. I mean it.
45. Anna Karenina. I’d like it if you read it.
46. The world spins on the principle of inherent tragedy.
47. Do not be blind to it.
48. Men are effectively idiots until the age of 26.
49. Carbohydrates are not the enemy.
50. Involve yourself in an organized activity of your choosing.
51. Listen to classical music occasionally.
52. Take hot baths.
53. Do not use bath salts.
54. You are more than capable.
55. I promise.
56. Don’t smile if you don’t mean it.
57. Mean your anger. Mean your sadness. Mean your pain.
58. I am always, always listening.
59. Travel.
60. Get stuck in a foreign country with $4.67 in your account.
61. Make me furious.
62. Make me worry.
63. Come home smelly, tired, and with a good story.
64. Your story isn’t really yours.
65. You are a compilation of others’ stories.
66. Well-fitting and modest is ALWAYS sexier than too small and tight.
67. Who cares if glitter isn’t tasteful?
68. It’s too much eyeliner if you have to ask.
69. Learn to bake for when you’re sad and I’m not there.
70. Humility and subservience are not synonyms.
71. Wash your face twice per day.
72. Be gentle with your skin.
73. Science is really cool.
74. So is literature.
75. And history.
76. And math.
77. There is no substitute for fresh air.
78. Carry your weight.
79. Make up for it later if you can’t.
80. That salad is not better than pasta and it never will be.
81. You’re fooling no one.
82. Find at least three green vegetables you can tolerate.
83. A smoothie is not a meal.
84. Expect the best from everyone.
85. People will let you down.
86. Bask in the sun (wearing a sunhat and SPF 90).
87. There is a certain kind of man you need to avoid at all costs.
88. You’ll know it when you meet him.
89. What other people say is right doesn’t always feel right.
90. What feels right is where your happiness is.
91. Give thoughtful gifts.
92. Form an opinion.
93. Stick to it.
94. Exfoliation in moderation.
95. Argue with people when you need to.
96. If it’s worth fighting for, fight fiercely.
97. Don’t fight for acceptance.
98. You shouldn’t have to.
99. Take pictures, but not too many.
100. Follow your bliss at all costs. (I’m cutting you off at 22, though).
101. Chocolate ice cream, however, might just be a permanent fix.

101 things I will teach my daughters


I'm going to make everything around me beautiful - that will be my life.

Elsie de Wolfe
You need to realize that the way you are feeling now will not be permanent.

Sometimes you meet someone, and it's so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you're in love or you're partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don't know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something.



Don't worry about your body.
It isn't as small as it once was,
but honestly, the world 
needs more of you.
You look in the mirror
like you've done something wrong,
but you are perfect.
Anyone who says otherwise
is telling a lie
to make you feel weak.
And you know better.
You have survived every single day
for as long as 
you've been alive.
You could spit fire
if you wanted.

Clementine von Radics, "A Poem For My Mother When She Doesn't Feel Beautiful"

Nothing will ruin your 20's more than thinking you should have your life together already.


The first step towards confidence is not being afraid to be ugly.

Once you get over the fear of being unattractive and stop equating beauty with other good things in life (friends, love, happiness) it's a lot easier to love yourself unconditionally.

Your job is not to sit around and be pretty and easy on everyone else's eyes.

Your job is to do whatever the fuck you want and look however the fuck you want while doing it.

I am fucking insane but my intentions are gold and my heart is pure.



You realize you are not alone, right? No one in their twenties has life figured out. It’s okay to be a mess. You’re living.


I have sea foam in my veins, I understand the language of waves.

 Le Testament d’Orphée
For a star to be born, there is one thing that must happen: a gaseous nebula must collapse

So collapse
This is not your destruction

This is your birth




And maybe what growing up really means is knowing that you don’t have to be just a character, going whichever way the story says. It’s knowing you could be the author instead.

Ava Dellaira, Love Letters to the Dead


You'll need coffee shops and sunsets and road trips. Airplanes and passports and new songs and old songs, but people more than anything else. You will need other people and you will need to be that other person to someone else, a living breathing screaming invitation to believe better things.

Jamie Tworkowski


All I wanted was to receive the love I gave.

10 word story

I'm losing sleep but I can't stop dreaming


Drink too much coffee, wear lipstick that's too dark, and never settle for a life you don’t want.



Be careful who you make memories with. Those things can last a lifetime.


Most days I wish I never met you because then I could sleep at night and I wouldn’t have to walk around with the knowledge there was someone like you out there.

Good Will Hunting


A cursed friend brought breath and ease again.


There is a girl who still writes you; she doesn't know how not to

Sarah Kay


Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy. Less me. Because I didn’t want to be a burden. I didn’t want to be too much or push people away. I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be cared for and valued. I wanted to be wanted. So for years, I sacrificed myself for the sake of making other people happy. And for years, I suffered. But I’m tired of suffering, and I’m done shrinking. It’s not my job to change who I am in order to become someone else’s idea of a worthwhile human being. I am worthwhile. Not because other people think I am, but because I exist, and therefore I matter. My thoughts matter. My feelings matter. My voice matters. And with or without anyone’s permission or approval, I will continue to be who I am and speak my truth. Even if it makes people angry. Even if it makes them uncomfortable. Even if they choose to leave. I refuse to shrink. I choose to take up space. I choose honor my feelings. I choose to give myself permission to get my needs met. I choose to make self-care a priority. I choose me.

Daniell Koepke
The fact that you're struggling doesn't make you a burden. It doesn't make you unloveable or undesirable or undeserving of care. It doesn't make you too much or too sensitive or too needy. It makes you human. Everyone struggles. Everyone has a difficult time coping, and at times, we all fall apart. During these times, we aren't always easy to be around — and that's okay. No one is easy to be around one hundred percent of the time. Yes, you may sometimes be unpleasant or difficult. And yes, you may sometimes do or say things that make the people around you feel helpless or sad. But those things aren't all of who you are and they certainly don't discount your worth as a human being. The truth is that you can be struggling and still be loved. You can be difficult and still be cared for. You can be less than perfect, and still be deserving of compassion and kindness.

Daniell Koepke


Sorrow is how we learn to love. Your heart isn’t breaking. It hurts because it’s getting larger. The larger it gets, the more love it holds.

Rita Mae Brown, Riding Shotgun


Some people will never "get you." Do not spend eternity asking why. People will see you differently, just cherish those who lift your soul.



Being an artist means healing your own wounds and at the same time, endlessly exposing them

Annette Messager


Que los besos no son contratos y los regalos no son promesas, y uno empieza a aceptar sus derrotas con la cabeza alta y los ojos abiertos, y uno aprende a construir todos sus caminos en el hoy, porque el terreno de mañana es demasiado inseguro para planes…y los frutos tienen una forma de caerse en la mitad. Y después de un tiempo uno aprende que si es demasiado, hasta el calor del sol quema. Así que uno planta su propio jardín y decora su propia alma, en lugar de esperar a que alguien le traiga flores.

Jorge Luis Borges


it really pisses me off how easy it is to get sad and then how long and hard it is to get happy again like what the fuck man thats not fair


Life's too short to drink crappy coffee and cry over boys who don't care.

Matty Healy


"Act like you trust people, but don’t." 



"I no longer know if I wish to drown myself in love, vodka or the sea."

Grantaire, Book V


"Finding is losing something else.
I think about, perhaps even mourn,
what I lost to find this."

Richard Brautigan, Finding Is Losing Something Else


Rules for Happiness
something to do,
someone to love
something to hope for.

Immanuel Kant


I got dressed this morning. For myself
Put on eye liner. For myself.

Put on my favorite red lipstick. For myself.

Showed a bit of skin. For myself.
I wanted to be beautiful. For myself.


There are years that ask questions and years that answer.

Zora Neale Hurston


I tell myself
Be a funny girl, baby.
Don’t let them see you
without a smile.
I tell myself
Don’t be boring, baby.
They’ll never stop teasing you
if you don’t make them laugh.
Fat girl. 
I tell myself
I can be a funny girl, instead.
Funny girl can make people
I tell myself
Don’t you dare be sad
in front of them. Don’t you
dare cry.
I tell myself not to fall in love
with the first boy who likes
my poetry.
I tell myself not to fall in love
with the first boy who doesn’t
like my jokes.
Funny girl, he can see how serious
you are.
I tell myself not to fall in love with
the first boy who doesn’t ask me
to make him laugh.
Funny girl isn’t a clown, I think.
Don’t fall in love because 
it’s been so long, baby.
Don’t fall in love because
he likes it when you cry.
I tell myself to be careful.
Funny girl is running out
of punchlines, and she is using
her own jaw instead.
Funny girl is dying with a smile,
swallowing down a panic attack
when she has to squeeze into a seat
on the bus.
I tell myself
No one can hurt you if you
hurt yourself, first. They will be
too busy helping you clean up the mess.
I tell myself
You don’t have to wear this armor
if it is too heavy.
You don’t have to
be afraid of your silence.
Funny girl, you are so much more
than what you’ve let yourself become.
You are not a circus, okay?
You are not a circus.
You are not a circus.

Funny Girl (after Fat Girl by Megan Falley) | Caitlyn Siehl   

20 años no es nada

"so now you’re about to turn twenty and the world hasn’t gotten any bigger for you. you’re untouched, unloved, unprepared. your parents still pay for your gas. your friends all have internships. one of them even got cast to be in a movie. you’ve got all this talent that you don’t know how to share. you just want to fuck someone, anyone, to feel a little less like an island. the man at the McDonald’s drive-thru held both sides of your hand when he handed you your change and you cried the entire way home. skin burns. you’re about to turn twenty and you feel like you’re fifteen. you sleep for fourteen hours and still need a nap. the world is shrinking one empty heartache at a time.
you’re scared you’ll never find anyone to love you, not even well. you’ll settle for anything.
you’re about to turn twenty and they never remind you how young that is. falling in love does not make you grow up, heartbreak does, and there is more than one way to fall apart.
you’re about to turn twenty and it’s okay if you aren’t ready. it’s okay if you aren’t ready. it’s okay."

turning 20 | Caitlyn S.

Necesitaba esto.





















Nah, fuck that. Party like they WERE. Party with the hope in your heart that the next twelve months will make up for it. Party because it’s behind you and you fucking survived. Party because you’re alive and still awesome despite the last twelve months trying to destroy you.

Party because you won.

ladyshinga & thisisjustgreat


I'm better than you think. I'm even better than I think I am.

The Wild Things, Dave Eggers 


Ignore your responsibilites and fantasize about older men.
Cuando me amé de verdad 
comprendí que en cualquier circunstancia
yo estaba en el lugar correcto, en la hora correcta
y en el momento exacto, y entonces, pude relajarme. 
Hoy sé que eso tiene un nombre ... "Autoestima"

Cuando me amé de verdad
pude percibir que mi angustia
y mi sufrimiento emocional, no es sino una señal 
de que voy contra mis propias verdades
Hoy sé que eso es …"Autenticidad" 

Cuando me amé de verdad
dejé de desear que mi vida fuera diferente
y comencé a ver todo lo que acontece
y que contribuye a mi crecimiento. 
Hoy eso se llama …"Madurez" 

Cuando me amé de verdad
comencé a percibir 
como es ofensivo tratar de forzar alguna situación, o persona
solo para realizar aquello que deseo, aún sabiendo que no es el momento, 
o la persona no está preparada, inclusive yo mismo. 
Hoy sé que el nombre de eso es …"Respeto" 

Cuando me amé de verdad
comencé a librarme de todo lo que no fuese saludable …
personas, situaciones, todo, y cualquier cosa 
que me empujara hacia abajo
De inicio mi razón llamó esa actitud egoísmo. 
Hoy se llama …"Amor Propio" 

Cuando me amé de verdad
dejé de temer al tiempo libre 
y desistí de hacer grandes planes
abandoné los mega-proyectos de futuro
Hoy hago lo que encuentro correcto, lo que me gusta
cuando quiero, y a mi propio ritmo. 
Hoy sé que eso es …"Simplicidad y Sencillez" 

Cuando me amé de verdad
desistí de querer tener siempre la razón
y con eso, erré menos veces
Hoy descubrí que eso es la …"Humildad" 

Cuando me amé de verdad
desistí de quedar reviviendo el pasado, 
y preocuparme por el futuro
Ahora, me mantengo en el presente, 
que es donde la vida acontece. Hoy vivo un día a la vez. 
Y eso se llama …"Plenitud" 

Cuando me amé de verdad
percibí que mi mente puede atormentarme, y decepcionarme
Pero cuando yo la coloco al servicio de mi corazón, 
ella tiene una gran y valiosa aliada
Todo eso es …"Saber Vivir"

No debemos tener miedo de confrontarnos
hasta los planetas chocan, y del caos 
nacen muchas estrellas.

Charles Chaplin
You have only 
seen yourself 
two times.

Taking a picture 
and looking at the
image and staring 
in the mirror and
looking at your 

You don't get to see 
the way your eyes 
light up when you talk
about something 
you love.

And you can never 
see how beautiful 
you look when you
really smile.

It's really is kinda 
sad that never
actually seen yourself.

But I can promise you 
I will be here everyday
to tell you what I see.



I'm good at loving books. I'm good at loving soft bed sheets. I'm good at loving coffees and teas. I am good at loving things that can't love me back, that don't have the power to leave. And maybe, that's why I love them.