I don't know who I am. Or maybe I do know who I am and I just don't want to be her anymore.




Gayle Forman

Note to self: every time you were convinced you couldn't go on, you did.

Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.



Maya Angelou 

You will be the only you to ever live on this planet, so don't be afraid to be yourself. Fuck what people think about you, take advantage of being unique. Stay true to who you really are and begin to take responsibility for yourself. At the end of the day, we are nothing but our own experiences and memories and the only dreams that matter are the ones you have when you're awake. Be thankful for what you have and where you're at. Some aren’t so fortunate, some people have real problems, so don't stress, it always could be worse.

And this is real life. The way you can deal with those situations is by making decisions, and you either do or you don't want to be involved with them. I know it's way more complicated then that, but that's the step you need to take. It's the time spent contemplating which is the hardest. Perfection cannot be reached, because nothing's perfect, but things can change, and so can people.

Time here is short. Fuck what you know, or think you know, and just be and give yourself some credit for the work you put in with your own two hands, but remember to never forget the people and things that have helped you along the way. Surround yourself with the people you love, and well, if they don't love you, then they really aren't your friends.

You only have one chance to live in this spec we call life, so stay the fuck in school, and say fucking no to drugs. Tomorrow, smile at a perfect stranger. Don't forget how lucky we are to be alive, take advantage of every day. There is life in every breath you take, and there is hope with every move you make, and every single mistake you think you've made should make you feel alive. Remember there might not be a tomorrow.

Skies are blue and I'm alive. So all is well.


John Cornelius O'Callaghan V

I want to meet someone who makes me feel the way music does.

excavationed

♥ ♥ ♥

Guys who give non-awkward hugs make the world go round

Love me till I'm me again.

You're not even mine to miss.

Who the hell said you no longer had it in you?


Charles Bukowski

1. Chocolate is only a temporary fix.
2. A properly-fitting bra is not a luxury. It is a necessity.
3. Your happiness is your happiness and yours alone.
4. How to apply red lipstick.
5. How to wear the crap out of red lipstick.
6. A boyfriend does not validate your existence.
7. Eat the extra slice of pizza.
8. Wear what makes you feel gracefully at ease.
9. Love the world unconditionally.
10. Seek beauty in all things.
11. Buy your friends dinner when you can.
12. Wear sunscreen like it’s your second job.
13. Try with all your might to keep in contact with far-away friends.
14. Make the world feel at ease around you.
15. Walk with your head up.
16. Order a cheeseburger on the first date if you want to.
17. Never, ever bite your nails.
18. Swipe on some lipstick, put on your leather jacket, and sneak into a bar somewhere.
19. Learn from your mistakes that night.
20. Dental hygiene is not multiple choice.
21. Your GPA is not a confession of your character.
22. There is strength in breaking down.
23. You don’t have to like yoga.
24. Pick a tea.
25. Take care of your feet.
26. Pick a perfume.
27. Even if you’re tall, wear the heels anyway.
28. Classy is a relative term.
29. Drink whiskey if you like whiskey.
30. Drink wine if you like wine.
31. Like what you like.
32. Offer no explanation.
33. Advil and Gatorade.
34. You are no less of a woman when you’re in sweats and gym shoes than a woman in stilettos and a pencil skirt.
35. A woman is a woman is a woman.
36. Love your fellow woman with all your heart and soul.
37. Cry, uninhibited, with your friends.
38. Laugh until you can’t breathe with your friends.
39. Tell me everything.
40. Exercise to be strong and healthy. A beautiful soul needs a sturdy vessel.
41. There is no shame in hoping for love.
42. My cooking is the best cooking.
43. Do not take sex lightly.
44. I mean it.
45. Anna Karenina. I’d like it if you read it.
46. The world spins on the principle of inherent tragedy.
47. Do not be blind to it.
48. Men are effectively idiots until the age of 26.
49. Carbohydrates are not the enemy.
50. Involve yourself in an organized activity of your choosing.
51. Listen to classical music occasionally.
52. Take hot baths.
53. Do not use bath salts.
54. You are more than capable.
55. I promise.
56. Don’t smile if you don’t mean it.
57. Mean your anger. Mean your sadness. Mean your pain.
58. I am always, always listening.
59. Travel.
60. Get stuck in a foreign country with $4.67 in your account.
61. Make me furious.
62. Make me worry.
63. Come home smelly, tired, and with a good story.
64. Your story isn’t really yours.
65. You are a compilation of others’ stories.
66. Well-fitting and modest is ALWAYS sexier than too small and tight.
67. Who cares if glitter isn’t tasteful?
68. It’s too much eyeliner if you have to ask.
69. Learn to bake for when you’re sad and I’m not there.
70. Humility and subservience are not synonyms.
71. Wash your face twice per day.
72. Be gentle with your skin.
73. Science is really cool.
74. So is literature.
75. And history.
76. And math.
77. There is no substitute for fresh air.
78. Carry your weight.
79. Make up for it later if you can’t.
80. That salad is not better than pasta and it never will be.
81. You’re fooling no one.
82. Find at least three green vegetables you can tolerate.
83. A smoothie is not a meal.
84. Expect the best from everyone.
85. People will let you down.
86. Bask in the sun (wearing a sunhat and SPF 90).
87. There is a certain kind of man you need to avoid at all costs.
88. You’ll know it when you meet him.
89. What other people say is right doesn’t always feel right.
90. What feels right is where your happiness is.
91. Give thoughtful gifts.
92. Form an opinion.
93. Stick to it.
94. Exfoliation in moderation.
95. Argue with people when you need to.
96. If it’s worth fighting for, fight fiercely.
97. Don’t fight for acceptance.
98. You shouldn’t have to.
99. Take pictures, but not too many.
100. Follow your bliss at all costs. (I’m cutting you off at 22, though).
101. Chocolate ice cream, however, might just be a permanent fix.


101 things I will teach my daughters

I'm going to make everything around me beautiful - that will be my life.



Elsie de Wolfe

You need to realize that the way you are feeling now will not be permanent.



r.h

Sometimes you meet someone, and it's so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you're in love or you're partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don't know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something.




Unknown

Don't worry about your body.
It isn't as small as it once was,
but honestly, the world 
needs more of you.
You look in the mirror
like you've done something wrong,
but you are perfect.
Anyone who says otherwise
is telling a lie
to make you feel weak.
And you know better.
You have survived every single day
for as long as 
you've been alive.
You could spit fire
if you wanted.


Clementine von Radics, "A Poem For My Mother When She Doesn't Feel Beautiful"

Nothing will ruin your 20's more than thinking you should have your life together already.

The first step towards confidence is not being afraid to be ugly.

Once you get over the fear of being unattractive and stop equating beauty with other good things in life (friends, love, happiness) it's a lot easier to love yourself unconditionally.

Your job is not to sit around and be pretty and easy on everyone else's eyes.

Your job is to do whatever the fuck you want and look however the fuck you want while doing it.



pinkspotlight

I am fucking insane but my intentions are gold and my heart is pure.



Unknown 

You realize you are not alone, right? No one in their twenties has life figured out. It’s okay to be a mess. You’re living.

I have sea foam in my veins, I understand the language of waves.



 Le Testament d’Orphée

For a star to be born, there is one thing that must happen: a gaseous nebula must collapse. 

So collapse. 
Crumble.
This is not your destruction. 

This is your birth. 



Nhixxie

Ojalá.

And maybe what growing up really means is knowing that you don’t have to be just a character, going whichever way the story says. It’s knowing you could be the author instead.



Ava Dellaira, Love Letters to the Dead

You'll need coffee shops and sunsets and road trips. Airplanes and passports and new songs and old songs, but people more than anything else. You will need other people and you will need to be that other person to someone else, a living breathing screaming invitation to believe better things.



Jamie Tworkowski

All I wanted was to receive the love I gave.


10 word story

I'm losing sleep but I can't stop dreaming. 

Drink too much coffee, wear lipstick that's too dark, and never settle for a life you don’t want.



cafai

Be careful who you make memories with. Those things can last a lifetime.

Most days I wish I never met you because then I could sleep at night and I wouldn’t have to walk around with the knowledge there was someone like you out there.



Good Will Hunting

A cursed friend brought breath and ease again.

There is a girl who still writes you; she doesn't know how not to. 



Sarah Kay

Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy. Less me. Because I didn’t want to be a burden. I didn’t want to be too much or push people away. I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be cared for and valued. I wanted to be wanted. So for years, I sacrificed myself for the sake of making other people happy. And for years, I suffered. But I’m tired of suffering, and I’m done shrinking. It’s not my job to change who I am in order to become someone else’s idea of a worthwhile human being. I am worthwhile. Not because other people think I am, but because I exist, and therefore I matter. My thoughts matter. My feelings matter. My voice matters. And with or without anyone’s permission or approval, I will continue to be who I am and speak my truth. Even if it makes people angry. Even if it makes them uncomfortable. Even if they choose to leave. I refuse to shrink. I choose to take up space. I choose honor my feelings. I choose to give myself permission to get my needs met. I choose to make self-care a priority. I choose me.



Daniell Koepke

The fact that you're struggling doesn't make you a burden. It doesn't make you unloveable or undesirable or undeserving of care. It doesn't make you too much or too sensitive or too needy. It makes you human. Everyone struggles. Everyone has a difficult time coping, and at times, we all fall apart. During these times, we aren't always easy to be around — and that's okay. No one is easy to be around one hundred percent of the time. Yes, you may sometimes be unpleasant or difficult. And yes, you may sometimes do or say things that make the people around you feel helpless or sad. But those things aren't all of who you are and they certainly don't discount your worth as a human being. The truth is that you can be struggling and still be loved. You can be difficult and still be cared for. You can be less than perfect, and still be deserving of compassion and kindness.



Daniell Koepke

Sorrow is how we learn to love. Your heart isn’t breaking. It hurts because it’s getting larger. The larger it gets, the more love it holds.



Rita Mae Brown, Riding Shotgun

Some people will never "get you." Do not spend eternity asking why. People will see you differently, just cherish those who lift your soul.



Dodinsky

Being an artist means healing your own wounds and at the same time, endlessly exposing them. 




Annette Messager

Que los besos no son contratos y los regalos no son promesas, y uno empieza a aceptar sus derrotas con la cabeza alta y los ojos abiertos, y uno aprende a construir todos sus caminos en el hoy, porque el terreno de mañana es demasiado inseguro para planes…y los frutos tienen una forma de caerse en la mitad. Y después de un tiempo uno aprende que si es demasiado, hasta el calor del sol quema. Así que uno planta su propio jardín y decora su propia alma, en lugar de esperar a que alguien le traiga flores.



Jorge Luis Borges

it really pisses me off how easy it is to get sad and then how long and hard it is to get happy again like what the fuck man thats not fair


scottthepilgrim

Life's too short to drink crappy coffee and cry over boys who don't care.

Matty Healy

"Act like you trust people, but don’t." 



Anonymous 

"I no longer know if I wish to drown myself in love, vodka or the sea."

Grantaire, Book V

"Finding is losing something else.
I think about, perhaps even mourn,
what I lost to find this."



Richard Brautigan, Finding Is Losing Something Else

Rules for Happiness: 
something to do,
someone to love, 
something to hope for.




Immanuel Kant

I got dressed this morning. For myself. 

Put on eye liner. For myself.

Put on my favorite red lipstick. For myself.

Showed a bit of skin. For myself.

I wanted to be beautiful. For myself.

There are years that ask questions and years that answer.

Zora Neale Hurston

❝ I tell myself
Be a funny girl, baby.
Don’t let them see you
without a smile.
I tell myself
Don’t be boring, baby.
They’ll never stop teasing you
if you don’t make them laugh.
Fat girl. 
I tell myself
I can be a funny girl, instead.
Funny girl can make people
forget.
I tell myself
Don’t you dare be sad
in front of them. Don’t you
dare cry.
I tell myself not to fall in love
with the first boy who likes
my poetry.
I tell myself not to fall in love
with the first boy who doesn’t
like my jokes.
Funny girl, he can see how serious
you are.
I tell myself not to fall in love with
the first boy who doesn’t ask me
to make him laugh.
Funny girl isn’t a clown, I think.
Don’t fall in love because 
it’s been so long, baby.
Don’t fall in love because
he likes it when you cry.
I tell myself to be careful.
Funny girl is running out
of punchlines, and she is using
her own jaw instead.
Funny girl is dying with a smile,
swallowing down a panic attack
when she has to squeeze into a seat
on the bus.
I tell myself
No one can hurt you if you
hurt yourself, first. They will be
too busy helping you clean up the mess.
I tell myself
You don’t have to wear this armor
if it is too heavy.
You don’t have to
be afraid of your silence.
Funny girl, you are so much more
than what you’ve let yourself become.
You are not a circus, okay?
You are not a circus.
You are not a circus. ❞


Funny Girl (after Fat Girl by Megan Falley) | Caitlyn Siehl   

20 años no es nada

"so now you’re about to turn twenty and the world hasn’t gotten any bigger for you. you’re untouched, unloved, unprepared. your parents still pay for your gas. your friends all have internships. one of them even got cast to be in a movie. you’ve got all this talent that you don’t know how to share. you just want to fuck someone, anyone, to feel a little less like an island. the man at the McDonald’s drive-thru held both sides of your hand when he handed you your change and you cried the entire way home. skin burns. you’re about to turn twenty and you feel like you’re fifteen. you sleep for fourteen hours and still need a nap. the world is shrinking one empty heartache at a time.
you’re scared you’ll never find anyone to love you, not even well. you’ll settle for anything.
don’t.
you’re about to turn twenty and they never remind you how young that is. falling in love does not make you grow up, heartbreak does, and there is more than one way to fall apart.
you’re about to turn twenty and it’s okay if you aren’t ready. it’s okay if you aren’t ready. it’s okay."

turning 20 | Caitlyn S.


Necesitaba esto.
Mucho.

THE FACT THAT THIS IS CONCIDERED A FUCKING HORRIBLE VIEW OF HOW GIRLS SEE THEMSELVES PISSES ME OFF AND MAKES ME WANT TO STAB MY BED OKAY

LADIES

LISTEN TO ME

YOU ARE FIRECRACKERS

YOU ARE A BLIZZARD

YOU ARE AN APOCALYPSE OF LOVE AND RAGE

YOU ARE NOT AND SHOULD NEVER BE DUMBED DOWN TO WHAT YOUR GODDAMN PERCENTAGE OF FAT TO MUSCLE IS 

YOU ARE BROKEN BONES AND SCRAPED KNEES AND THROATED SCREAMS AND YOU 

ARE

BEAUTIFUL

IF YOU LOOK LIKE THIS, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

IF YOU DON’T LOOK LIKE THIS, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

IF YOU THINK YOU LOOK LIKE THIS, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL 

I AM SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF SEEING WONDERFUL, SMART, TALENTED, WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL GIRLS HATING THEMSELVES BECAUSE OF AN UNREALISTIC EXPECTATION SET ON THEM AT A YOUNG AGE

YOU ARE PERFECT THE WAY YOU ARE

OWN IT


manicpixiedreamskrillex

party

PARTY LIKE THE PAST TWELVE MONTHS WEREN’T EMOTIONALLY CRIPPLING


Nah, fuck that. Party like they WERE. Party with the hope in your heart that the next twelve months will make up for it. Party because it’s behind you and you fucking survived. Party because you’re alive and still awesome despite the last twelve months trying to destroy you.

Party because you won.


ladyshinga & thisisjustgreat

I'm better than you think. I'm even better than I think I am.



The Wild Things, Dave Eggers 

Ignore your responsibilites and fantasize about older men.

Cuando me amé de verdad 

comprendí que en cualquier circunstancia, 

yo estaba en el lugar correcto, en la hora correcta, 

y en el momento exacto, y entonces, pude relajarme. 

Hoy sé que eso tiene un nombre ... "Autoestima"

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

pude percibir que mi angustia, 

y mi sufrimiento emocional, no es sino una señal 

de que voy contra mis propias verdades. 

Hoy sé que eso es …"Autenticidad" 

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

dejé de desear que mi vida fuera diferente, 

y comencé a ver todo lo que acontece, 

y que contribuye a mi crecimiento. 

Hoy eso se llama …"Madurez" 

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

comencé a percibir 

como es ofensivo tratar de forzar alguna situación, o persona, 

solo para realizar aquello que deseo, aún sabiendo que no es el momento, 

o la persona no está preparada, inclusive yo mismo. 

Hoy sé que el nombre de eso es …"Respeto" 

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

comencé a librarme de todo lo que no fuese saludable …, 

personas, situaciones, todo, y cualquier cosa 

que me empujara hacia abajo. 

De inicio mi razón llamó esa actitud egoísmo. 

Hoy se llama …"Amor Propio" 

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

dejé de temer al tiempo libre 

y desistí de hacer grandes planes, 

abandoné los mega-proyectos de futuro. 

Hoy hago lo que encuentro correcto, lo que me gusta, 

cuando quiero, y a mi propio ritmo. 

Hoy sé que eso es …"Simplicidad y Sencillez" 

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

desistí de querer tener siempre la razón, 

y con eso, erré menos veces. 

Hoy descubrí que eso es la …"Humildad" 

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

desistí de quedar reviviendo el pasado, 

y preocuparme por el futuro. 

Ahora, me mantengo en el presente, 

que es donde la vida acontece. Hoy vivo un día a la vez. 

Y eso se llama …"Plenitud" 

Cuando me amé de verdad, 

percibí que mi mente puede atormentarme, y decepcionarme. 

Pero cuando yo la coloco al servicio de mi corazón, 

ella tiene una gran y valiosa aliada. 

Todo eso es …"Saber Vivir"

No debemos tener miedo de confrontarnos, 

hasta los planetas chocan, y del caos 

nacen muchas estrellas.

Charles Chaplin

You have only 
seen yourself 
two times.

Taking a picture 
and looking at the
image and staring 
in the mirror and
looking at your 
reflection.

You don't get to see 
the way your eyes 
light up when you talk
about something 
you love.

And you can never 
see how beautiful 
you look when you
really smile.

It's really is kinda 
sad that never
actually seen yourself.

But I can promise you 
I will be here everyday
to tell you what I see.

R'J

I'm good at loving books. I'm good at loving soft bed sheets. I'm good at loving coffees and teas. I am good at loving things that can't love me back, that don't have the power to leave. And maybe, that's why I love them.



B.C.

You will not get what you truly deserve if you’re too attached to the things you’re supposed to let go.

My life is a joke and I'm not laughing anymore.



dignitea

Do not ignore it. Fuck it. Cry your heart out. Then fuck it some more.



Charles Bukowski, Selected Letters Vol. 4 

Sometimes, I fall more in love with an echo than the real thing.



Shinji Moon, from Nocturne No. 1

I already said too much. I already shared too much, and I want all my secrets back. I hate getting close to people these days, I always regret sharing too much, caring too much, doing too much, feeling too much.



Anonymous

"I need to learn how to stop destroying myself, stop being hard on myself and be nice to myself. I need to keep telling myself that I need to keep wanting something, something nice, something warm, more than just a fur coat because I can make other people happy. I can understand other people’s pain because I can love even after all that is left of me is gone because I have that strength." 



Daul Kim 

I think a lot of people compare their insides to other people’s outsides.


Emma Stone

"Write. Write until it stops hurting."



Six Word Story #40 by absentions 

"It's horrible when your heart is somewhere your body is not."


Joe Lunn 

"I'm not a girl
I'm a storm with skin."

"The most memorable people in your life will be the ones who loved you when you weren't very lovable."

It is the broken
the shattered inside of us
that makes us perfect.


Tyler Knott Gregson

"I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life." 



Unknown

I'm going to tell you what a demon once told me: It is okay to want your own happiness. It's okay to care about yourself the most. It's okay to do what's healthy for YOU. When someone hits you, it's okay to hit back and then ask them what the hell they expected. It's okay. You are not obligated to sit there and smile and swallow every bit of shit everyone heaps on you. You are more than furniture, you're more than window dressing, you're not their shiny toy. You're human, and you have the right to say "That was shitty of you". You have a right to say "Let me feed that back to you; tell me, how does it taste?" You have a right to protest your own mistreatment and set boundaries for respectful interactions. The rest of the world doesn't realize you have this right, and they will act offended and appalled when you exercise it, but it is yours.


SonneillonV 

"I've been drinking about you."

you give me a boner.

not a penis boner.

but a boner in my heart.

a heart on.

an affection erection

"Never worry about being obsessive. I like obsessive people. Obsessive people make great art." 



Susan Sontag

The fact that someone else loves you doesn’t rescue you from the project of loving yourself.


Sahaj Kohli

"It's only 56 days before 2014 and I feel like the only thing I've done this year was disappoint everyone including myself."

Mi 2013 en una oración. 

If I get a little prettier can I be your baby?

Lloviendo en París

Midnight comes in, Paris and as. I light my cigarette, the rain it hits my face. So I start walking toward the Ferris wheel, from my hotel on Champs-Élysées. For now I am alone, I might always be alone.

My heart is in the city of love, but it's raining in Paris. What good is a heart of gold with nobody to share it with. It's coming down, it's coming down, my head can hardly bare it. My heart is in the city of love, but it's raining in Paris.

So let it rain on me. See my heart's on fire, but I always got cold feet. Love never really did anything for me, try telling that to this goddamn city. And if the storm should stop, I'd ask you to dance on some cliche mountain top, we'd share straws at your favorite coffee shop, but life it ain't no romance novel.

I met a man who sold umbrellas and just five dollars saved me from all that rain.

For now I am alone. I think I like being alone.


A nadie le gusta estar solo John. 

"Sometimes you have to die inside in order to rise from your ashes, love yourself and become a new person."



Gerard Way

I am worth the fight,
I am worth the aching eyes,
I am worth the tears.


Tyler Knott Gregson

"I care so much I’m sick."


Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451

The cold never bothered me anyway.

"Someday, someone is going to look at you like you’re the best thing in the world."

No hay fórmula secreta para dejar ir a un amor y olvidarlo. Pero creo que en mi caso hubo dos cosas necesarias que tuve que pasar. Primero fue vivir mi luto y después tomar decisiones. Necesitaba sufrirlo un poco y así, de a poco, mengua el dolor, con el tiempo te agotas, y cuando estás tan cansada dices: ¡Ya no más! Te maquillas las penas con orgullo y sales con la seguridad de que afuera hay algo nuevo y mejor para ti.


Aunque me vista de seda, Denise Márquez